I don't know how I'm going to write this without it all sounding like jibberish but I feel like there needs to be update on life and I really need to let some of my frustration out.
The past 2 weeks of my life have been absolutely insane. This is not an understatement either. I go to school full time (18 hours ladies and gentlemen), worked almost 30 hours each week, attempted to put some Wesley time in (the Christian campus organization I'm involved in as Outreach Chair), and very poorly succeeded at keeping a social life. It's all been fun and games and I've actually been able to keep up with everything...until now. I've hit a wall; a hard one at that. I'm exhausted and overwhelmed. I keep hoping I can get a moment to breath but that moment never seems to come. I'm at the end of my sanity rope and next weekend, I'm helping lead at a youth camp. How are you supposed to give your all when you feel like there's nothing left to give?
I know the Christian card should be played here and the repetitive words of "give it all to Him," keep ringing in my mind but I'm kind of at a lost of how to do that. As a college student, you try to stay organized so you can run a somewhat orderly life; but when saying, "give it all to Him," you give up a big part of that power and control of being organized. So here is my question...how do you give it all to Jesus but still have the sanity to keep going in life? To be able to keep going because just saying you're giving it to Jesus doesn't mean life stops. It keeps going. Crazy or not, in control or handing it over, you are forced to move forward with life and decisions that encompass it all.
